Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. Then came rapid jolts, like electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, severe pain around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts propose bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery that delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack eased.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Edward Rowland
Edward Rowland

A risk analyst and strategic consultant with over a decade of experience in finance and technology, specializing in data-driven decision frameworks.